I keep something for every good man who ever Loved me. Little reminders of tender moments in time, I've always been a sucker for Nostalgia.
I'm sure you noticed when I wore that necklace for years on end, and always that ring. Now some of those things are lost or put aside, but I suppose I also can't be enamored forever. You already knew that.
I'm scared of being left alone forever, no gifts to give but pain.
Once is an accident, Twice coincidence,.... Five,....is possibly damnable.
-A
It all begins with a Perfect Love
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I want to Love you entirely
With every last breath
"Oh? You're not good at Math? That's okay... You must be good at other things"
And we can grow together
With one another
I want to hold you and smile with you
Until the last of our days
"You're a little bit needy. It's fine, it means that you Love me a lot"
I -want- to
"You have no cognizant thought other than that you want me to Love you"
But sometimes that choice isn't yours
"No, it's not enough that you Love me. Because there's nothing about -you- to Love me with"
You can't Love someone...
"I don't want to be with you because there's nothing about you! I don't want to spend time on you because I already know EVERYTHING about you!"
...If there's no one there
"I've asked you what you want to do with your life. And you've said you don't know... I've asked you what you Love in life, and you've told me you Love me... Well how have you shown me that except wasting my time, wasting my effort and wasting my life"
"I treat you like a piece of ass because that's all you've ever given me... I've tried so hard to inspire you and support you on ANY endeavor you would have chosen... And you wouldn't even make the CHOICE for me..."
"You wouldn't even try, for fear that you would fail and I'd stop Loving you"
"I never even started... How could I? When the only thing I know about you is that you can ride me and you don't like strawberries"
"... It all began with me Loving you. I didn't just Love you. I Loved what you were capable of becoming. I Loved where you came from. That never dies. That never stops. But my promises to you can't be made, because you can't accept them.
I wanted everything for you. But you were too much of a coward to take them.
I wanted to Love you entirely... For everything you would be. But everything you were. I couldn't fit inside of you. I was restrained, and I wasn't used. I was unsatisfied-- [And now I have to get my day started :( ]